Please tell me???

Sunday, October 28, 2007

I don't know where my life is going--home,health,family, friends,money,all of it!! It has been the wildest 5yrs.-- not know from day to day what is around the corner. Everyday, it is something crazy!! I'm now sure why or when my life took this turn, I know I don't like it!! I've always been a "LITTLE WILD AND CRAZY" in a fun way!! But, not "CRAZY!!" I have to figure out how to change and stop it!! I don't know if anyone is even reading this shit--in a way, I hope not!! And if so, if they can even make sense of it but, if anyone is and you can make sense of it--tell me, if you can: How can you get peace in your head if everyone around you is screaming?? If you can't get away from the screaming- If you are in a room w/100 people yet, you are still alone-If your whole personality as change so much in the last 5 yrs., you don't even know yourself-If you always have a smile but, are dying inside-If you can't tell the people around you all this because, they know you as being the "STRONG ONE"-If go home but it's not home- you lock the doors,windows,turn the phones and lights offs and hide. It's not me, or what I have ever been like!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!! So, can anyone PLEASE tell me-- how do I breath again?? How do I find myself again?? Where do I even start?? PLEASE!!! carose